Uncharted Territory

An uncharted territory. It's already been weeks [and counting] since I got in this foreign land. Terror creeps in and doubt starts lurking as I explore the unfamiliar terrain I am into where different breed of lions are. A character that is definitely not possessed by the Joshua Generation.

I have had bad decisions in my career life for the past months. Bad, as in foolish and unwise acts. Disciplining process was very painful, and consequences of my disobedience were felt by my whole household which made it even more agonizing. It was definitely one of those humbling periods in my life. I've had many crying nights -- a cry for help, a shout for rescue.

Jesus, I need You. Every bit of my body, heart, soul, spirit needs You. Every area of my life is useless and cannot accomplish anything without You. Help me go through this Lord for Your Name's sake. 

And the Lord heard my plea! My heart leaped for joy because specific prayers were finally answered. God responded to my desperate prayers and I landed a job. But as I delve into this unexplored, undiscovered ground (well, at least for me), my heart started to doubt again. Fear is making its way into my mind...again.

Am I too old for this? I am competing with these young ones whose work experiences are something that this company is looking for. I'm having a hard time catching up with the lingo, culture, jargon, and process flow of this industry. Felt that my 10-year professional experience is nothing compared to theirs.

Jesus, You are the source of everything. Equip me with Your divine wisdom and courageous character. Help me not to be drowned in the sea of doubt. I am reaching my hand to You, take the wheel, my Lord and take full control of my life. Help me conquer this land and conquer my fear, to be excellent in this field and to bloom where You've planted me for Your glory alone! 

Yeah! Talking about insecurities. I may not share with  you all the details YET, but I thank the Lord for this time. It's not every day that I get to write an entry and I wanted to thank the Lord and the sweet Holy Spirit for this moment. But for those who are experiencing or have experienced the same, this song from Don Moen is definitely on point. May our heart sing praises to God in every seasons of our life.

Uncharted Territory

Verse 1
I find myself in uncharted territory
Never felt so lost never felt so lonely
Where are You Lord

I'm so afraid I can feel the fear inside me
Can't control the chaos all around me
Where are You Lord
How can I sing the Lord's song in a foreign land

Chorus 1
(But) How can I forget
All You've done for me
Everything You've done Lord
Just to set me free
Teach me how to pray
Teach me how to praise
Even in the darkness
Teach me how to sing Your song
(Your song gonna sing Your song)

Verse 2
How can I sing when my heart is broken
When every prayer is just a token
Where are You Lord

Sometimes our pain can tell a tragic story
Still I will praise You and give You glory
Where are You Lord
Help me to sing the Lord's song in this foreign land

Chorus 2
(But) How can I forget
All You've done for me
You have been so faithful
Meeting every need
Teach me how to pray
Teach me how to praise
Even in the darkness
Teach me how to sing Your song
Your song gonna sing Your song

Feel free to share anything about the unwise decisions you've had in your career life and how Jesus helped you go through it.

God bless your good heart! :)